Post by redemption on Jun 3, 2007 16:02:22 GMT -5
Forever
Best friends forever.
Pfft. What a lie. Forever? Give me a freakin’ break. Forever doesn’t exist.
Shocking, ain’t it? Me, Trixie Carter, a disbeliever of forever. You’d think I’d believe in it more than anything with the fact that my best friend is a dragon, my other best friend is a super genius, and all kinds of crazy magical stunts happen to me every freakin’ day of the week.
Last time I checked, that stuff was only supposed to be fairy tales. But then, forever is supposed to be real.
I guess I stopped believing in forever when my dad got shipped overseas.
My dad is in the war. The war. With guns, bombs, death every day. No magical pixie dust, no fire breathing dragon can change that. I knew a kid whose mother died in the same war.
And I’m so scared my dad will be next.
Eh? Rose?
Rose… Well, I guess in a normal world I could be friends with the home girl. I mean, she’s nice and she likes Jakey. Even if she is—was—the Huntsgirl. But to be honest, I’ve never seen Jake so head over heels for someone, and seeing him get all torn up when she left…
… It just about killed me.
I don’t have magical powers. I’m no siren, dragon, werewolf, Huntsclan member. I’m no genius. I’m not even that pretty.
I’m just your normal, average, run-of-the-mill high school tomboy. And yeah, I guess it works with all the freakiness that goes on, ‘cause who else is gonna keep Jakey and Potato Boy in line when they get some crazy idea in their head?
But sometimes… I wish I wasn’t.
I want to be like Jake; I want to be able to transform, to become stronger and faster to protect both the community and the people I care about. I want to be like Spud and Haley; super smart so I can get straight A’s without even trying so my mom doesn’t have to worry about my grades as she’s checking the mail to make sure Dad didn’t die.
Hell… I even want to be like Rose; strong enough to defy my destiny, even if it’s chosen for me, optimistic enough to believe everything will work out in the end even if it’s all screwed up like my grandma’s cooking.
I want to believe in forever.
But I can’t. The only person I can ever be is myself: ordinary Trixie Carter, tomboy of the school.
The person who doesn’t believe in forever.
Because if forever existed, Spud wouldn’t act dumb just ‘cause he’s afraid of how people would treat him. If forever existed, Jake and Rose could be together even with her memory erased.
If forever existed, my dad would be home. If forever existed, I could protect everyone.
But Spud acts dumb, and Jake and Rose aren’t together even though God knows they’re practically soul mates after all they’ve been through.
My dad isn’t home. And I’m not strong enough to protect anybody.
Forever doesn’t exist for me.
The End
... This didn't turn out at all the way I thought it would. ;;
I wanted to write this similiar to Lao Shi's "Weight of the World" but somehow it turned out like this. Bleh, whatever.
Written because way to many people hate Trixie.
Best friends forever.
Pfft. What a lie. Forever? Give me a freakin’ break. Forever doesn’t exist.
Shocking, ain’t it? Me, Trixie Carter, a disbeliever of forever. You’d think I’d believe in it more than anything with the fact that my best friend is a dragon, my other best friend is a super genius, and all kinds of crazy magical stunts happen to me every freakin’ day of the week.
Last time I checked, that stuff was only supposed to be fairy tales. But then, forever is supposed to be real.
I guess I stopped believing in forever when my dad got shipped overseas.
My dad is in the war. The war. With guns, bombs, death every day. No magical pixie dust, no fire breathing dragon can change that. I knew a kid whose mother died in the same war.
And I’m so scared my dad will be next.
Eh? Rose?
Rose… Well, I guess in a normal world I could be friends with the home girl. I mean, she’s nice and she likes Jakey. Even if she is—was—the Huntsgirl. But to be honest, I’ve never seen Jake so head over heels for someone, and seeing him get all torn up when she left…
… It just about killed me.
I don’t have magical powers. I’m no siren, dragon, werewolf, Huntsclan member. I’m no genius. I’m not even that pretty.
I’m just your normal, average, run-of-the-mill high school tomboy. And yeah, I guess it works with all the freakiness that goes on, ‘cause who else is gonna keep Jakey and Potato Boy in line when they get some crazy idea in their head?
But sometimes… I wish I wasn’t.
I want to be like Jake; I want to be able to transform, to become stronger and faster to protect both the community and the people I care about. I want to be like Spud and Haley; super smart so I can get straight A’s without even trying so my mom doesn’t have to worry about my grades as she’s checking the mail to make sure Dad didn’t die.
Hell… I even want to be like Rose; strong enough to defy my destiny, even if it’s chosen for me, optimistic enough to believe everything will work out in the end even if it’s all screwed up like my grandma’s cooking.
I want to believe in forever.
But I can’t. The only person I can ever be is myself: ordinary Trixie Carter, tomboy of the school.
The person who doesn’t believe in forever.
Because if forever existed, Spud wouldn’t act dumb just ‘cause he’s afraid of how people would treat him. If forever existed, Jake and Rose could be together even with her memory erased.
If forever existed, my dad would be home. If forever existed, I could protect everyone.
But Spud acts dumb, and Jake and Rose aren’t together even though God knows they’re practically soul mates after all they’ve been through.
My dad isn’t home. And I’m not strong enough to protect anybody.
Forever doesn’t exist for me.
The End
... This didn't turn out at all the way I thought it would. ;;
I wanted to write this similiar to Lao Shi's "Weight of the World" but somehow it turned out like this. Bleh, whatever.
Written because way to many people hate Trixie.