Holy crap, did I just update Rose Of Sharyn? I think so XD Anyway, sorry it's been... Well, ages. I suck at updating as usual
XD Yeah, been really busy with YTHR and well, school stuff... Then there's learning to drive and extra curricular activies *sigh* Well, it's the holidays now and I've had a lot more free time, so I was able to knock off this update.
It's funny, once I was pyschologically aware of the fact that I had time I was able to knock off this chapter in like 10 minutes. XDD
Anyways, I hope you like it! Please stay with me on this one. lol
Chapter 5 – Bring Back Yesterday (Jake’s P.O.V)As I stood there, wind lashing against with immense fury and the rain fell down soaking into every part of my body I didn’t seem to notice it. It was almost as if I was completely out of tune from the world around me, and just focused on this moment I had locked myself into. Because it suddenly felt like the only thing I wanted to live for.
I had no idea what to feel, or what to think of it. I just stood there holding Rose in my arms, because it was the only thing that had felt truly right to me over the past few days. It was all I wanted to do. The streets were dead still, quiet enough to hear each individual rain drop crashing against the hard concrete road, and with every second that passed I felt an urge inside of me to break the silence, to voice everything that had gone through my mind over the past few days, and past few years.
But as I open my mouth to speak, I couldn’t find the right words worthy enough to end this
moment, let alone fit the matter of everything that had happened to us over the past few years. I didn’t know where to start, I didn’t know what question I wanted to ask her first
”Maybe you should come in,” I said, gesturing towards the shop door.
Rose nodded in response, barely even looking at me, and I with that I slowly pulled away and titled her neck up slightly, trying to catch a glimpse of her face, but she just turned away stubbornly, almost as if she was too ashamed to even look at me.
I sighed and took her hand (well, wrist actually) in mine, leading her over to the shop door, pushing it open gently as the last few drops of rain that could reach us fell upon our heads, saturating through our clothes even more, that couldn’t have gotten wetter if they were thrown out of a boat.
I pulled my now soaking jacket off of Rose’s shoulders and hung it up. Thick beads of rain oozing from the material, as it clung lifelessly to the handle.
“So,” I said eventually “What’s up?”
Rose just looked at me with a blank expression on her face, almost as if
“Okay,” I replied sheepishly “Still not passed the awkward part.”
“I’m sorry Jake,” she said, still not even completely looking at me.
“For what?” I asked, half frustrated for the lack of acknowledgement she was giving me.
“I’m not sure,” she replied “It just seems to suit this situation quite well.”
I laughed nervously, still unsure of how to take this situation myself.
You could cut the tension in that room with a knife. It was so strange. Here was Rose, back in my life after all these years, sitting just a few feet across from me. If I just turned around I could hold her and feel relief inside of me once again. Or simply just tell her how much I felt her. But it seemed impossible.
As the second passed, the distance divided us seemed to grow from feet to miles. I’d never been so close to her in all these years, yet at the same time, never felt so far away…
“Look it doesn’t have to be this way Rose,” I broke out eventually ending the silence that was killing me slowly inside “All that stuff between us, it’s history now. I mean, come on, that was years ago."
“Yeah,” she replied “Funny how time never fully mends wounds.”
“And how it never changes some things,” I added with a smile, as I continued to watch her.
She just looked over at me, still unsure of how to take this. I slowly felt silence brimming in the air, drowning out the few noises we made. I didn't want it to push us out once again, so I spoke up for a second time, trying to fill the silences once more.
“Look Rose,” I said “I know it might seem hard, but we had to acknowledge this sooner or later. You can’t end something without even saying goodbye; and as far as I know, this is not over.”
“Saying goodbye?” Rose repeated “Is that what this is all about, saying goodbye? Jake, saying goodbye would never end anything. I’m sorry I had to do that, but saying goodbye would just be acknowledging something that could never happen, and giving a second to chance to something that was hopeless from the start.”
"So you're saying you think there's no way anything could ever happen again between us?" I said eventually, after taking her words.
“I'm sorry Jake," Rose replied "But how can we ever start fresh after that?” she asked “How can we ever have what we had before again? After everything that’s gone on between us I don’t even know how possible it is for us to even associate with each other, let alone share our love…”
“Rose-“ I began
“It’s too late Jake,” she said “Sometimes you just have to learn to accept the truth…”
She got up and tried to make her way out of the door, but I grabbed her hand stopping her in her tracks. She turned back around and saw her hand lying in mine, as I looked up at her
“And sometime’s it’s best to know what you’re giving up, before you push it away completely…” I said eventually, breaking the silence.
She just stared at me in shock, her eyes widening almost as if they were open. She pulled her hand from my grip before heading out the door in a rush, turning her back to me as she headed out.
I walked over to the door watching her head down the sidewalks, wrapping her arms around herself as the rain continued to fall.
"Jake?" I heard a voice behind me call as I stared through the glass, watching Rose leave. I had almost completely forgotten about Sharyn.
"Jake?" she repeated, coming out to me as I continue to stare dead out the open door, watching Rose head further and further out of my life once again, with every step she took.
"Is something wrong Jake?" she said, putting her hand on my shoulder.
I stared across and looked at Sharyn, and then stared back over my shoulder watching Rose take her last few steps around the bend at the end of the street, slowly leaving my sight, before I reluctantly turned only to see Sharyn's face watching mine again.
I knew I still had feelings for Rose, nothing seemed more clear to me. But had everything that happened between Sharyn and I really been a mistake, or was I just giving myself something that deep down, I knew I really wanted.
I was torn, completely unsure of what to do. Literally standing in the middle of two girls who over time had become two of the most important people to me in the world.
"No," I muttered eventually, feeding a lie to not only Sharyn, but also myself. "Nothing at all..."
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Yah, so basically Jake still has feelings for Rose but is starting to thing he actually does have feelings for Sharyn, despite what part of his sub conscious is telling.
Yes I know, this is pretty much a soap opera
XD
Anyways, I hope you like it! Please R&R and I will try to take less then like, a year to get the next chappie done. XD